getting back on the horse

So it's been a little while since I last blogged. Like long enough for me to have a second baby who will be four months old on Thursday. ;)

I could make excuses about how busy we have been. And trust me, we have been. Derek has started going to grad school. I spent the better part of last winter on the couch and throwing up. Vera is in constant motion while she is awake. I should note that she naps for at least an hour every afternoon. This is huge. It took until she was about 18 months to finally get her napping well. And then, oh yeah, we had baby girl number 2 in September.

But while there have been a lot of things going on, it's just time to get back to blogging. And of course when I say "get back to", I mean it's time to start blogging. This is it kids, this time it's for real. ;)

And it's also time to get back into the habit of exercising and eating well. The holidays did a number on me this year. A real number.

On one hand, I'm still nursing Hattie so I do have *some* extra calories to eat each day. But my baby does not need all of her calories to be cookies. Last night Derek and Vera made cookies together. It was quite precious. But you guys, I ate six cookies last night. SIX. That's kind of unnecessary. I feel like an acceptable number of fresh cookies to eat is two. Maybe even three. But six? What am I? A teenage boy in the middle of football season? Good grief, no wonder I only have one pair of jeans that fit.

Right now my body is CRAVING sugar. And I made it that way. At the beginning of the holiday season I could eat one sugar cookie and feel totally satisfied and sugared out. But have no fear, I persisted in eating those cookies and built up quite the tolerance. A tolerance that led to last night's six cookies.

I'm not about to go on a cleanse or anything -- I'm breastfeeding a baby after all. But I do need to cut WAY back. I need to be more aware of what I eat -- especially because Hattie still likes eating at about 4:00 am and while I can usually get another hour of sleep after feeding her and getting her back down, I feel like a train wreck at 8:00. Revelation -- Hattie was up at 4 this morning, ate, went back to sleep. I felt horrible this morning. Maybe it was because I ate six chocolate chip cookies last night. And had a homemade chocolate chip muffin for breakfast. Wow. How could I not pick up on that sooner?

So here it is -- a journey, a documentation, a blog. Maybe I got here because of New Years. I mean who doesn't feel slightly compelled to make some sort of resolution this time of year? Maybe I got here because I just want to fit into all of my clothes again. Maybe I got here because I need an outlet during my days at home with the two most adorable girls. No matter the reason, here I am. I'm getting back on the horse. It's time to saddle up and get moving.